Wednesday, April 27, 2011

The Clock Stops For No One

As I get older, I have become more aware - or at least dwell more upon - the passage of time.  Thirty-five used to be "middle-aged" to me.  Now it is my age.  Time doesn't stop for anyone.  What shall I do within the time allotted to me?  Lengthy self-examination often just leaves me feeling wasteful and selfish in the end.  The time to act is now.  Find time for reflection and navel-gazing, but not too much.  I have found some ways to combat over-reflection and the stress and waste it often produces.

Why do I enjoy long distance running and other exercise so much?  One of the reasons could be that both I and others find that the dizzying array of options are cut down to just a few while engaged in a long training session.  There are only so many things one can do while running or cycling after all.  Mental/emotional/psychological peace is gained when the time at hand and its usage is made simple.  Perhaps it a good time for the reflection and navel-gazing I mentioned earlier.  This can be done as you tick off the miles.  If not reflection (which I slip into all too easily), it is a good time for listening via i-pod to lectures, books, or music.  It is also a good time for blunting pain of other sorts.  The physical discomfort of exertion has a way of submerging emotional and mental pain.  Sometimes, the harder the better.  Finishing your planned distance is also a concrete "done" feeling.  It is a task completed - and with an endorphin high to boot.  The run (or the ride) mirrors the run/race of life.  We all have our appointed course.  We all run our course, and hope to finish well.

I get impatient with those who claim boredom in their lives.  How can there be boredom?  There is so much to do!  Open the eyes, open the ears, realize that there is a finite amount of time allotted to this mortal life, and get passionate about something...but don't stress about it.  Find what you're good at, and then do it!  What you're good at will often be the thing or things which you can find true enjoyment in.  Don't beat your head against the wall trying to do those things for which you have no aptitude for.  Don't do too many things, but do a few things - and do them well.  Accept the fact that you will not be good at everything - or even many things.  Accept that you will not have time for many things - and that if you try and find the time for them it will end in frustration, stress, and disappointment.  I have found this works for me.  At least, it helps make life more enjoyable.  Use time well.  The clock stops for no one.